Im back at university now. So, back to the uni routine. It has been a hard process to adjust to and even though, Im happy to be back in this youthful energy of an environment; but at the same time I wish I was still back home.
Since I have moved back, it has somehow started a bad period for my trich and I hate myself more than ever for letting that happen. There has been this wave of energy, which has made me feel anxious and stressed. This is because I have been non-stop, doing so much that literally it is boggling my brain. Everything overlaps one another. Work, my uni course, extra-curricular activites, house stuff eg making sure everything is paid and up to date and above all, keep track of my health. Making sure I dont get ill. It is alot to take in and there is the feeling of worry constantly over me. Every day is a struggle. Just to make sure that I get through one day at a time.
I was doing well before this bad period struck. I hated myself with the fact that I started again and I feel like all the work I had done before has now gone to waste. Having trich whilst still in education, is a stressful time and hard to really keep trich under control. There have been many moments so far, where I have felt down for maybe not doing well on an essay or a practical assessment, or i have got shouted at whilst at work, hearing negative news from home and even, trying to find friends to catch up with but keeping bailing on you. Yep, this has all happened to me. I am now currently, trying to find ways of picking myself up and begin that good road track again. Fingers crossed.